Mindful Connection

As I previously discussed, I’d like to further touch on how our disconnected perspective with mental health is because we connect the mind and the soul as though they are one and the same. That perhaps we need to reframe our perception of the mind.

What if we could look at it as a dashboard or interface to connect the soul to the physical existence? A way for our soul to experience, and be touched by, this thing we call life. But not necessarily something that defines the spirit. Especially with how it seems the line is blurred between soul and physicality. It would be easy to see the how we could lose sight of how truly magnificent the spirit is. Yet we’re so ignorant about what the soul even is; leaving a definition complex. So, with a lack of a universal definition and explanation, truly it is up to what you feel is your truth. Just maybe don’t be so hard on yourself and others, we’re all still in beta testing.

Though be it through the heights of happiness, the bliss of love, or the depths of sadness. I know my soul is more. It’s at these moments of intensity that I feel my soul’s connection is more easily seen. But I also know it’s still there during the monotony of every day routine. Yet I don’t feel that these aspects of the physical experience, define my soul. Though other souls leave an imprint, I feel that Spirit is an everlasting strength, a certainty, I can tap into whenever I choose. Or more like whenever I remember how to, as disconnection feels like an epidemic.

I know it’s not a new realization, but even though we’re more easily connected than ever, the vast majority of people feel lonely. It’s an ironic fact that we’re all lonely together… In s highly accessible world. Is this due to the way technology takes away those highs and lows? Or puts controls on it so we may choose to not experience the intensity at times? Those moments that make the connection more visible, it allows us a filter. Or at least places them in solitude within a device, rather than in unpredictable personal interactions. I feel that it’s more fear of unpleasant interactions or judgement, with technology being a good assistance in avoidance. A lot of negative stuff in our existence goes back to roots in some sort of fear.

Now with that all being said, there’s still times technology may precipitate these deeply connecting experiences, but I see how it can dull the more common interactions. We’re more in control, but perhaps that control comes at a cost? I think it boils down to what all of humanity must advance in, which is mindfulness and moderation.

I greatly value connections I’ve made with people that I might never have had the opportunity to, had it not been for the internet. But I also notice the colder interactions with people closer to me. Such as feeling forced to stay on a platform I dislike to just have any sort of connection or interaction with some friends and family. Rather than phone calls or scheduling chats over coffee. We update our status and put up pictures online to keep others informed. Yes, there may be more information in quantity, but what about quality? Or connection? Remember, it’s more fulfilling to see your beautiful face in person than the perfected photo on your account. Even if there’s a new one every day.

Perhaps in the world of filters and followers, that disconnection with self becomes greater. Due to the pressure of needing an instagood worthy experience every day. When most of us realize how generally the same our daily lives are. But it’s ok to not be picture perfect. Connecting to the real person is far more satisfying than a perfectly filtered image.

In the end it’s ok to dive into the digital world and play a part. But don’t forget to tap out routinely, to take time to tap into connection with your soul, as well as others. It can be a powerful tool for good after all.

As humans it seems we have many things to learn about what mindfulness really is and how it plays a role not only in our physical health but also our spiritually health and connectivity. One of the many good things about the internet is that are more capable of being able to remind each other to take time out to reach out, or reach within. Just think of it as being similar to how your device’s operating system needs updates routinely, so does your spirit. We just get the cool opportunity to connect in many ways, be it spiritually upgrading to connect with others. It during times alone sketching/whatever helps you reach a meditative space. Just take that time to tap in and level up! 😉

Realistic Positivity

fabian-moller-401625-unsplash.jpgIf you know me at all, or follow me on Instagram, you will know I am all about those positive vibes. Whether it is Law of Attraction (positivity attracts positivity). Or just down to the science of Psychology and what powerful effects positive thinking can have on your well-being. I am on board! I try to spread it everywhere and use it to get through the challenges of life and especially, the challenges of chronic illness. But I wanted to talk briefly about, realistic positivity. As it seems so often we’re bombarded with messages of “just be positive!” and there’s a point we all reach where that isn’t realistic.

I’ve had chronic pain for a while, but over the last few months it has gotten a lot worse. With horrible flare-ups that just hurt to my core. While I continue to battle for a proper diagnosis, I still am trying to get the pain under control. Due to my holistic wellness training and desire to heal my body rather than band-aid the issues. I have had a lot of issues with finding solutions. Even being adamant about not wanting narcotics, western medicine treats chronic pain with extreme suspicion. Which I understand for the addiction issues, but for a patient who doesn’t want to go down that road at all, it is still an extremely frustrating and often dehumanizing experience. For the past few months I felt like a ping pong ball being batted back and forth between doctors. Yet even clearly stating I do not want narcotics, I was verbally spat on. I kept at it and finally I was referred to a specialist. It would take months to get an appointment, but I was so hopeful this would offer me some solutions for my pain. My primary even ran scans and tests ahead of time so that I would be set for this appointment.

I’ve been driving myself for weeks to just get to that appointment, to use the pain, and have it drive me. Thinking I’d finally have options and potential answers. I got there almost an hour early, only to be rushed through intake. To find out they never even looked at my scans/tests, and had to only see the Physicians Assistant. Who would shush me every time I tried to speak. He was robotic and barely even looked at me. I felt like I wasn’t even aloud to speak, let alone hurt. I don’t feel like I was heard and I wasn’t given any viable options from the visit. It was a waste of time and it left me crushed. Then today I had a flare-up, which hit me hard. And you know what? I let it. I got the kiddo off to school, I looked at my schedule and set aside the none-essential things. Which gave me a couple free hours today. And I let the sadness, frustration, and pain wash over me. I gave myself permission to cry, be upset, feel sorry for myself, wallow. Just gave myself permission to feel. I let all those emotions that I don’t want to dwell on, pass through me. Because if I keep going like they’re not real, I will burn out. They’re a part of life. And I so often see people who believe in the power of positivity, carry this guilt of having a bad day. Yet, we’re only human and no one can realistically be positive 100% of the time. Even if you can, I think it is a disservice to your experience in this existence. Because it is part of life and it is essential to allow all things to balance out in life. But the key is to allow yourself time to let it pass through you, and not dwell inside you. It is just a moment in time and it will pass. It is just energy and it will pass.

I could go into more depth about all the specialists I’ve seen and how they treat me like I’m subhuman. How much having a disability requires me to constantly advocate, not only for myself but others as well. Just never-ending avocation and work to get through all the barriers that happen in just “normal” existence. But that is seriously enough for an epic book. One you gotta let me know would want to read. As I don’t want to just rattle on with stories.

My main point is, if you’re going through some stuff. Be kind to yourself. Give yourself permission to take a break from trying to be “on top of it all”. Learn to tell the difference between allowing negativity to take up residence in your life, and just allowing experiences to flow through you without attachments. Because life is really all about energy. There’s good and bad. While we try to maintain the positive, negative energy has to be around for balance. Most importantly with all this, please, learn if you need to take out time to retreat inward during a bout of treacherous energy. Or if you need to reach out. It can be isolating and I am so grateful for the support system I have. Don’t let it isolate you if you need someone (I’m here if you wanna talk!).

We just need to learn to not attach self-worth to the current flow of energy. So, we’re capable of navigating through it.

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